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Worry and fear are like drug addiction. Or this is an even more accurate comparison. Worry and fear are addiction to poison. I put poison into my body and think that it will make me better and happy, but it doesn't. It hurts and kills me. That is what worry and fear are. Toxin. Poison. Worry never solved a problem. Worry is about the future, but the future does not exist right now in the present moment in reality. People create a million events in their mind convincing themse

95% of things in life are out of my control. I cannot control other people or what they think about me. I cannot control the government or the world. I cannot control the weather, gravity, or nature. I cannot control everyone and everything. I cannot solve every problem of my life. I cannot make everything good, happy, and peaceful. I am not God. I am only a human being. I can't do anything perfectly. No one does anything perfectly. Perfection and perfect people don't exist.

I used to suffer from severe obsessive compulsive disorder from 2016 to June 2021. When I was 18 to 23. I worried about everything endlessly. I was afraid of everything. I doubted everything. I wasted my time and energy overthinking, replaying every event and memory I could remember in my mind. I was paranoid. What if thoughts are terrible. The first what if thought, worry and fear that showed up in 2016 was what if someone steals my ideas? What if someone steals my ideas, my

Why do we human beings exist in this universe? Why does the planet Earth have life? Why are my parents my parents? Why is my family my family? Why am I who I am? What if the world is a simulation? What if the world is like The Matrix? What if reality is an illusion or a dream? What if I'm not real? What if everything in the universe is my imagination? What if----? Stop. Tell yourself to stop. Stop all the what if thoughts. Don't listen to them. Don't fight them. I used to suf

Many times for many years, I believed I was trapped and hopeless. My life is cursed and hopeless. My life will always be depression, sadness, misery, suffering, insanity, mental illness, and pain. Nothing will change. I want to die. I want to give up on life. That is what I believed for many years. Since July 10, 2026, I decided to change myself for the better. No excuses. Don't allow hatred, worry, fear, anger, sadness, and hopelessness to control my mind and my life anymore

Everything that happened to you explains who you are. It explains why you are that way. Your genetics also explain who you are and why you are that way. Some people who experience many tragedies, difficult circumstances, suffering, sadness, hatred, anger, abuse, attacks, many terrible people, or other serious problems for many years become hate filled negative people. It is understandable why they are that way. I was the same way for most of my life. I hated many people and m

People with serious problems, such as severe mental illness, drug addiction, gambling addiction, violent actions, or other problems. People with serious problems who refuse to look for help are hopeless. There is nothing you can do. You can try to reason with them and convince them. You can try to assist them with finding help. People who refuse to look for help are hopeless. They will die in a few years or get locked up in jail or prison. If you really don't want to live in

I thought about this many times for a year. I wanted to make YouTube videos of me just talking about life, my wisdom, knowledge, experience, and advice. Today I finally did it. I recorded and uploaded the first video today. July 10, 2026 The Day I Finally Changed for the Better https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0JF1ixIU74&t=2s

I suffered from severe obsessive compulsive disorder, worry, fear, depression, paranoia, anxiety, overthinking, doubt from 2016 to June 2021. I suffered from severe depression since 2010. Severe depression causes all kinds of problems and suffering. To the people suffering from OCD. I know it's hard. I fully healed and recovered July 2021-December 2023. My OCD relapsed last year and this year, it's bad, but not as bad as 2016 to June 2021. I have 100% confidence, hope, and fa

Stop overthinking. No more planning. No more strategizing. When worries, fears, what if thoughts, and doubt come into your mind, accept them. Don't fight them. Don't try to solve them. Because there is nothing to solve. They are meaningless and worthless. Don't listen to them, suffer because of them, and surrender to them. When unwanted disturbing intrusive thoughts are in your mind, accept them. Tell yourself, "This thought that is making me worried and afraid is disturbing.

We are all going to die one day. You never know when you will die. Live every day the best you can. Live every day as if you will die at the end of the day. When you open your eyes and see tomorrow, good. You survived to see another day. I could have died in the past, 2016 to June 2021. I could have died because of severe mental illness. I want to create as many songs, albums, videos, books, stories, and art before I die. It's like the 2Pac work ethic and vision before death.

There is no shame in getting help. There is a ton of shame in self-destruction and refusing to admit you have a problem. There is a lot of shame in continually ruining your life and making everyone in your life miserable. If you are sick, something is wrong with your body, then you need to see a doctor. If it is serious and your life and body are in danger, you have to see a doctor. If you are mentally ill, something is wrong with your brain, then you need to see a therapist,

July 19, 2026 The past is finished. I can't change the past. No one can change the past. The future is unknown and unpredictable. No one knows what will happen in the future. I can tell you this. If you are like me. You have many regrets, sadness, anger, frustration, agony, tragedies, and difficult circumstances in your past. You can't change the past. I can't change the past. I seriously wish God gave me the chance to go back in time and restart my life. I hope for it and wi

Before we die. Try to have one good day or one good week. That's insulting, I know. One good day or one good week? In an entire lifetime? Are you out of your mind? That is what you are thinking. I used to be insane. But not anymore. I'm much more mentally strong, mentally stable, and functioning compared to when I lived in Atlanta. Try to have 1 good day or 1 good week. Take photos and videos. You can use your phone to do that. You don't have to do anything too fancy. It is e

July 10, 2026 I decided to finally change for the better. I will do everything I can to change myself for the better. I will try to forgive. I will try to let go of my hatred, grudges, bitterness, sorrow, regrets. I will try to let go of the past. I am 28 years old. I have finally changed for the better. It is a miracle my mother is still alive. I'm still alive. My mother is still alive and lives with me. I can prove to my mother now that I have finally changed for the better

You have two choices. These are the two choices of how you can choose to live life. #1 You choose to hate many people, hate yourself, always addicted to being miserable, don't forgive, hold onto grudges until you die, worry about everything endlessly, afraid of everything and everyone, doubting everything, overthinking everything, paranoid, blaming everyone, complaining about everything, regretting every day, never changing, thinking life is cursed and hopeless. You choose to

Growing up I hated many people because many people hated me and I hated myself. Because my father abandoned the family when I was 7 and my older brother gave me 3 hour lectures many times, it made me think I was undeserving of love. Because my family hurt me. Because many people hurt me. Because many people outcasted, rejected, ignored, attacked, sometimes physically attacked, abused, lied about me, and endlessly provoked me. July 10, 2026 I decided to finally change myself f

My mother gave birth to me at an old age. She gave birth to me when she was 43. My brother is 18 years older than me. I come from a very religious Christian family. My father was a pastor and he abandoned the family when I was 7. We moved from California to New Jersey when I was 7. My older brother was psychologically and emotionally abusive. Sometimes physically abusive. When I was 7 till I was 16 he gave me 3 hour in person lectures, 2 hour phone call lectures, 25 paragraph

July 10, 2026 I wrote in my journal. I used a pen to write on the pages. I told myself that July 10, 2026 would be the first day I finally change myself for the better. I will do everything I can to change myself and my life for the better. I was cancer, poison, and a parasite to my mother. My mother truly is evidence of God for me. My mother is my favorite person and the most important person in my life. I love her more than anyone. I have only caused her suffering, sorrow,

14 solutions to overcome fear and worry When I’m afraid and worried I tell myself this. All my fears and worries are my imagination. They don’t exist in reality. I'm always afraid and worried what if something terrible happens in the future. But the future doesn’t exist right now. It is non-existent. Suffering the non-existent is insanity. My fears and worries are non-existent, meaning they are 100% imaginary. People are always suffering what happened in the past and what may