Mental Illness/Mental Health

When I'm worried and afraid, refocus on the present moment in reality. Look at what is happening right now in the present moment in reality. Use all 5 senses: sight, hearing, touch, smell, and taste. The past is finished. The future is unknown. No one knows what will happen in the future. It is impossible to predict the future. No one knows exactly what will happen tomorrow. The next day is unknown. All I can do is live in the present moment. I can't prevent unwanted, disturb

I'm 28. I have many regrets, mistakes, and failures in my life. I used to be very angry, sad, miserable, depressed, frustrated, provoked, and confused for my entire life before this year. After many years of endless suffering, I gave up. I gave up on being angry and frustrated all the time. Desire ruined my life. I wanted many things. I wanted to leave New Jersey and have a new life somewhere else. I wanted to give my mother and myself a better life in Atlanta. But everything

Worry and fear are like drug addiction. Or this is an even more accurate comparison. Worry and fear are addiction to poison. I put poison into my body and think that it will make me better and happy, but it doesn't. It hurts and kills me. That is what worry and fear are. Toxin. Poison. Worry never solved a problem. Worry is about the future, but the future does not exist right now in the present moment in reality. People create a million events in their mind convincing themse

95% of things in life are out of my control. I cannot control other people or what they think about me. I cannot control the government or the world. I cannot control the weather, gravity, or nature. I cannot control everyone and everything. I cannot solve every problem of my life. I cannot make everything good, happy, and peaceful. I am not God. I am only a human being. I can't do anything perfectly. No one does anything perfectly. Perfection and perfect people don't exist.

I used to suffer from severe obsessive compulsive disorder from 2016 to June 2021. When I was 18 to 23. I worried about everything endlessly. I was afraid of everything. I doubted everything. I wasted my time and energy overthinking, replaying every event and memory I could remember in my mind. I was paranoid. What if thoughts are terrible. The first what if thought, worry and fear that showed up in 2016 was what if someone steals my ideas? What if someone steals my ideas, my

Why do we human beings exist in this universe? Why does the planet Earth have life? Why are my parents my parents? Why is my family my family? Why am I who I am? What if the world is a simulation? What if the world is like The Matrix? What if reality is an illusion or a dream? What if I'm not real? What if everything in the universe is my imagination? What if----? Stop. Tell yourself to stop. Stop all the what if thoughts. Don't listen to them. Don't fight them. I used to suf

Many times for many years, I believed I was trapped and hopeless. My life is cursed and hopeless. My life will always be depression, sadness, misery, suffering, insanity, mental illness, and pain. Nothing will change. I want to die. I want to give up on life. That is what I believed for many years. Since July 10, 2026, I decided to change myself for the better. No excuses. Don't allow hatred, worry, fear, anger, sadness, and hopelessness to control my mind and my life anymore

Everything that happened to you explains who you are. It explains why you are that way. Your genetics also explain who you are and why you are that way. Some people who experience many tragedies, difficult circumstances, suffering, sadness, hatred, anger, abuse, attacks, many terrible people, or other serious problems for many years become hate filled negative people. It is understandable why they are that way. I was the same way for most of my life. I hated many people and m

People with serious problems, such as severe mental illness, drug addiction, gambling addiction, violent actions, or other problems. People with serious problems who refuse to look for help are hopeless. There is nothing you can do. You can try to reason with them and convince them. You can try to assist them with finding help. People who refuse to look for help are hopeless. They will die in a few years or get locked up in jail or prison. If you really don't want to live in

I thought about this many times for a year. I wanted to make YouTube videos of me just talking about life, my wisdom, knowledge, experience, and advice. Today I finally did it. I recorded and uploaded the first video today. July 10, 2026 The Day I Finally Changed for the Better https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w0JF1ixIU74&t=2s

I suffered from severe obsessive compulsive disorder, worry, fear, depression, paranoia, anxiety, overthinking, doubt from 2016 to June 2021. I suffered from severe depression since 2010. Severe depression causes all kinds of problems and suffering. To the people suffering from OCD. I know it's hard. I fully healed and recovered July 2021-December 2023. My OCD relapsed last year and this year, it's bad, but not as bad as 2016 to June 2021. I have 100% confidence, hope, and fa

Stop overthinking. No more planning. No more strategizing. When worries, fears, what if thoughts, and doubt come into your mind, accept them. Don't fight them. Don't try to solve them. Because there is nothing to solve. They are meaningless and worthless. Don't listen to them, suffer because of them, and surrender to them. When unwanted disturbing intrusive thoughts are in your mind, accept them. Tell yourself, "This thought that is making me worried and afraid is disturbing.

We are all going to die one day. You never know when you will die. Live every day the best you can. Live every day as if you will die at the end of the day. When you open your eyes and see tomorrow, good. You survived to see another day. I could have died in the past, 2016 to June 2021. I could have died because of severe mental illness. I want to create as many songs, albums, videos, books, stories, and art before I die. It's like the 2Pac work ethic and vision before death.

There is no shame in getting help. There is a ton of shame in self-destruction and refusing to admit you have a problem. There is a lot of shame in continually ruining your life and making everyone in your life miserable. If you are sick, something is wrong with your body, then you need to see a doctor. If it is serious and your life and body are in danger, you have to see a doctor. If you are mentally ill, something is wrong with your brain, then you need to see a therapist,

If God gave me the opportunity to restart my life. I don't know everything. But I have knowledge of my greatest mistakes, failures, and regrets. If God gave me the opportunity to go back in time and restart my life, I would take it immediately. Without any hesitation. I would restart my life. I would not make the same mistakes, failures, and regrets. Life will always have problems. So I don't know what would happen if I fixed them. Other unpredictable, terrible things will ha

My father was a pastor and he abandoned the family when I was 7 years old. 2005 when I was 7, my mother, my brother, and myself moved from San Diego, California to Norwood, New Jersey. When I was 12 in 2010, I wanted to leave Norwood, New Jersey. The greatest goal for me growing up was to leave New Jersey. I hated New Jersey. I hated Norwood. I had many friends growing up. But I had many more people who hated me, hurt me deeply, outcasted me, rejected me, bullied me, and made

Everyone has their own way of dealing with the past. #1 They suffer from it. They remember it. They replay it in their minds endlessly. That is what I did for the first 27 years of my life. I still struggle with it. #2 They learn from it. They don't make the same mistakes and failures in the future. #3 They accept it. The past is finished. It cannot be changed. Only God could do that if you believe in God. #4 They focus on the present. That is what I am trying to do. The past

Before we die. Try to have one good day or one good week. That's insulting, I know. One good day or one good week? In an entire lifetime? Are you out of your mind? That is what you are thinking. I used to be insane. But not anymore. I'm much more mentally strong, mentally stable, and functioning compared to when I lived in Atlanta. Try to have 1 good day or 1 good week. Take photos and videos. You can use your phone to do that. You don't have to do anything too fancy. It is e

Most things in life are out of my control. 95% of things in life are out of my control. Many parts of life are not fair. That is what I believe. And I want you to believe the same thing. We cannot control what other people think about us, what other people say, the violence and other crimes that happen to people, the government, other countries' governments, the weather, natural disasters, completely preventing diseases, the past, the future, unexpected events, and death. Une

You have two choices. These are the two choices of how you can choose to live life. #1 You choose to hate many people, hate yourself, always addicted to being miserable, don't forgive, hold onto grudges until you die, worry about everything endlessly, afraid of everything and everyone, doubting everything, overthinking everything, paranoid, blaming everyone, complaining about everything, regretting every day, never changing, thinking life is cursed and hopeless. You choose to