I used to suffer from severe obsessive compulsive disorder from 2016 to June 2021. When I was 18 to 23. I worried about everything endlessly. I was afraid of everything. I doubted everything. I wasted my time and energy overthinking, replaying every event and memory I could remember in my mind. I was paranoid. What if thoughts are terrible. The first what if thought, worry and fear that showed up in 2016 was what if someone steals my ideas? What if someone steals my ideas, my

Why do we human beings exist in this universe? Why does the planet Earth have life? Why are my parents my parents? Why is my family my family? Why am I who I am? What if the world is a simulation? What if the world is like The Matrix? What if reality is an illusion or a dream? What if I'm not real? What if everything in the universe is my imagination? What if----? Stop. Tell yourself to stop. Stop all the what if thoughts. Don't listen to them. Don't fight them. I used to suf

My father was a pastor and he abandoned the family when I was 7 years old. 2005 when I was 7, my mother, my brother, and myself moved from San Diego, California to Norwood, New Jersey. When I was 12 in 2010, I wanted to leave Norwood, New Jersey. The greatest goal for me growing up was to leave New Jersey. I hated New Jersey. I hated Norwood. I had many friends growing up. But I had many more people who hated me, hurt me deeply, outcasted me, rejected me, bullied me, and made

Everyone has their own way of dealing with the past. #1 They suffer from it. They remember it. They replay it in their minds endlessly. That is what I did for the first 27 years of my life. I still struggle with it. #2 They learn from it. They don't make the same mistakes and failures in the future. #3 They accept it. The past is finished. It cannot be changed. Only God could do that if you believe in God. #4 They focus on the present. That is what I am trying to do. The past

You have two choices. These are the two choices of how you can choose to live life. #1 You choose to hate many people, hate yourself, always addicted to being miserable, don't forgive, hold onto grudges until you die, worry about everything endlessly, afraid of everything and everyone, doubting everything, overthinking everything, paranoid, blaming everyone, complaining about everything, regretting every day, never changing, thinking life is cursed and hopeless. You choose to